Monday, May 31, 2010


So who coined the phrase "You get what you expect" ???

I want to find him (because it's probably a man that came up with that #shotsfired) and bring him to reality.

Because how many of us always get what we expect? Probably a low percentage.

So I expected something yesterday, and I didn't get. So I'm calling the BS when I see it, and taking out my frustration on the guy who decided to give me a pipe dream and told me it would all come to fruition, and all I had to do was the simple act of expectation.

Talk about BS.
Now I'll be living with the alternative, and I'm coining this phrase as my knight in shining armor. Because it will help protect me from how I feel right now (ie. dejected/rejected/let down/forgotten/etc.)

"Always expect less than your expectations."


Sunday, May 30, 2010

Digital Girl. Day Two.

So I guess this means it's no longer a digital experience. I'm no longer a digital girl. Actually, why did I even put it in the title?

Probably because I will have to revert back to digital after this once-in-a-blue-moon mountain-top experience expires. And it will. It's so inevitable it's not even funny.

You may be mad at me for "seizing the moment" but what's to do when it's finally right in front of you staring into your eyes, holding your hand, kisisng your forehead? Yeah I thought so.

So back behind the wall created for me, I just gotta prepare my mind and heart.  But I'm not gonna let it cause me to push him away until the screen comes back.


Saturday, May 29, 2010

Digital Girl.

Things just got very real for me.

I told myself I wouldn't get lost in my thoughts, but alas, here I am. Abstaining from name mentions (we have twitter for that), my life just got a little more complicated.

I really didn't think feeling like this was possible.  I mean, what's a girl who missed her 4-year window supposed to expect?  All I kept telling myself was to keep my distance, don't get sucked in and.... boom (there goes the dynamite)!

I have no idea where this is going next so I guess I'll keep writing my thoughts because my brain is overloaded right now.

Think I feel better already.