Dead End.

When nothing's going your kinda right
Its hard to see anything but wrong
Its hard to stay strong
Don't even ask me about lasting long
Or singing sweet songs

Like a sweet melody
Each note hitting your ear
Giving you a feeling like there is no
care in the world and
there ain't a thing to worry about and
yeah...

Whatever,
That's all a collage
Of shoulda-woulda-couldas
and maybe-if-i-just-said-that-one-thing
twisted views of the 20-20 hindsight
Makes me want to give up the fight

To be a better me.

So where's the right I'm not seeing?
They tell me it's God's plan
But all God is giving me are dead ends....

Nocturnal Thoughts

Good morning
Good night
Good things come to those who wait
And patience is necessary for success
But sometimes I want to take advantage
Of the blessings
In advance

Sometimes I wish to see
The future manifest before
The present exists
To be sure that my persistence
Is not a vain sense of being
That I'm holding on to something
Worth my reality

Till then i wait for good things to come

if i told you..

things happen for a reason.
whatever this one may be.

Deja Vu sucks.

My Cure

When no one else is around, God is always there to comfort my soul. His words are powerful. I'm not 100%; heck i can't even say im anywhere near 50. But I know I'll get there because God is always there to pick me up.  I just wish it wasn't so hard.
"Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life"
-Proverbs 4:23-


Word of God Speak
MercyMe


I'm finding myself at a loss for words,
and the funny thing is, it's okay
The last thing I need is to be heard,
but to hear what You would say:

Word of God speak; Would You pour down like rain?
Washing my eyes to see your majesty
To be still and know; That You're in this place
Please let me stay and rest in Your holiness
Word of God speak.

I'm finding myself in the midst of You
Beyond the music, beyond the noise
All that I need is to be with You
And in the quiet, I hear your voice:

Word of God speak; Would You pour down like rain?

Washing my eyes to see your majesty

To be still and know; That You're in this place

Please let me stay and rest in Your holiness

I'm finding myself at a loss for words,

And the funny thing is; It's okay.

Word of God Speak

Transitioning out of my selfish desires and into simply pleasing God.  Setting boundaries so I know what not to touch and to see a clear path ahead of me.

More later. Just so much to pray about that I can barely get it written down.  Just know if you're reading this and you're going through the same thing, you aren't alone.

Ciao,
Ari

someone wake me up.

like is one thing
love is something
timing is everything
or else there's nothing

joy inside my soul
cannot be denied
cannot make sense
my mind has lost control
but i don't mind being irrational

as long as i have you with me
mentally, physically
whatever it may be
i'm happy.

up against the wall [pun intended]

i shouldn't have to apologize 
but i'm now the center of scrutinizing eyes 
someone please give me a disguise
i cant even hold on
if everyone wants a piece of the pie
please just give me a chance
to explain my side


it was never my goal
no well-crafted design
i didn't lay the turf
or wax the court
or smooth the ice
so why am i the vice
maybe i'm being misused?
and now i'm confused


my integrity is on the line
should i be considerate and step behind?
should i act like it's even on my mind?
i should have seen this coming
but i'm no visionary
'cause you never plan extraordinary


-r-ree